YOU

You’re my true love that I want you to know. Our love for each other has helped us to grow. We’ve been through some tough times but we’ve made it through. The only one I ever trusted was you. The only one that I will ever love is you, only you…You helped me through anger, through the mount, through the fears. You held me through sadness and kissed away tears. You stayed by my side when the world tuned away. You helped me see joy when the skies were all gray. You were the rainbow at the end of the storm. You help me be different when I shouldn’t confirm. You held my hand when you knew I would fall. Every heartache, you saw me through it all. I know that I’m not the best for you; I know I’m not perfect, but this much is true. I will always love you till the end of our life. When life gets you down, and there’s nowhere to turn, I’ll help you through and I’ll share your concern. I’ll try my best to return every favor. When you’re sure that you’ll drown then I’ll be your lifesaver. Even if we both go down. Whatever the situation, it doesn’t matter at all. Just know that I’ll be there whenever you call. LOVE, I’ll pull you out when life pulls you under. I’ll be the sun when there’s lightning and thunder. And when it’s all over and we’ve fought every war, there’s one thing I promise. Of this I am sure, when the time comes that we’re put to our rest. Be sure that you know that…LOVE, you’re the best. And if there is heaven and I know you’ll be there, that if you die first then you’ll hear my pray for you. And soon I will join you, but just know until then that I’ll miss you each day till I see you again. At the end of the tunnel, you’ll be my guiding light. You’ll lead me to heaven, away from the night. We’ll be together and we’ll never grow old. And we’ll walk hand in hand on the streets paved of gold. I know and I’ll always believe that I’ll see your face and we can be together till the end of the day…

(3.16 am 30 April 2010)

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Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we LoVe, we fail to recognize & appreciate the people who LoVe us. We miss out on so many beautiful things & simply because we allow ourselves to been slaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds & not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you LoVe but the man who LoVes you more. The best LoVers are those who are capable of LoVing from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the LoVe deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop LoVing, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, &anger that keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength & weaken your faith & never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may found peace in just LoVing someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace& happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice &beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives & eventually consumes our thoughts & actions The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed & be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded & we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you LoVe. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me; you would be better off giving that dedication & LoVe to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible & let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose LoVe that doesn't mean that you failed in LoVe. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt & the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday & LoVe will find its way back to you & when it does, pray that it may be the LoVe that will stay & last a lifetime.

(4.43 pm 30 April 2010)

DEAREST BEST FRIENDS...(ilysm ma besties,,thanx 4 bein' there wheneva i need u guys

Best friends always remember so well
All the thing we did together
All the subjects we discussed
All the mistakes we made
All the fun we had…

Best friends always remember
How their friendship was such a stabilizing force
During confusing times in their life…

Best friends may have different lifestyles
Live in different places
And interact with different people
But no matter how much
Their life may change
Their friendship remains the same…

I know that throughout my life
Wherever I am…
I’ll always remember so well and cherish our friendship
As one of the best I have ever known…
I love you….

(12.09 am 5 May 2010)

dear DEWA...

You’re my true love that I want you to know. Our love for each other has helped us to grow. We’ve been through some tough times but we’ve made it through. The only one I ever trusted was you. The only one that I will ever love is you, only you…You helped me through anger, through the mount, through the fears. You held me through sadness and kissed away tears. You stayed by my side when the world tuned away. You helped me see joy when the skies were all gray. You were the rainbow at the end of the storm. You help me be different when I shouldn’t confirm. You held my hand when you knew I would fall. Every heartache, you saw me through it all. I know that I’m not the best for you; I know I’m not perfect, but this much is true. I will always love you till the end of our life. When life gets you down, and there’s nowhere to turn, I’ll help you through and I’ll share your concern. I’ll try my best to return every favor. When you’re sure that you’ll drown then I’ll be your lifesaver. Even if we both go down. Whatever the situation, it doesn’t matter at all. Just know that I’ll be there whenever you call. LOVE, I’ll pull you out when life pulls you under. I’ll be the sun when there’s lightning and thunder. And when it’s all over and we’ve fought every war, there’s one thing I promise. Of this I am sure, when the time comes that we’re put to our rest. Be sure that you know that…LOVE, you’re the best. And if there is heaven and I know you’ll be there, that if you die first then you’ll hear my pray for you. And soon I will join you, but just know until then that I’ll miss you each day till I see you again. At the end of the tunnel, you’ll be my guiding light. You’ll lead me to heaven, away from the night. We’ll be together and we’ll never grow old. And we’ll walk hand in hand on the streets paved of gold. I know and I’ll always believe that I’ll see your face and we can be together till the end of the day…


(9.18 pm 6 May 2010)

DEWA of mine...

when HIS soul first came to me
HE showed me the beauty of fantasies
HE's my life,my destiny
livin' with HIS soul is nothing else but everything
how can I ever find a replacement if HE leaves

how beautiful the shining light of the sunrise
and the amazing shadows of the sunset
angel as HE gazes into my eyes,the reflection I see
in HIS eyes it shows me the softness HE has for me
how can HE live in obliging me?
when insanity has overruled me
the brightness of this world will be overshadowed
by the darkness of my shredded tears
that will overflow the entire land of paradise
realizing that it will cost a price

I need sunshine in my days
something to wash away the 'pain'
I saw a very gentle side of HIM
that took my heart and made it sing
I wish HE'd run away and hide with me
LOVE is so much more than it seems
there is one thing I didn't show before
I LOVE HIM and HE doesn't know

I wonder if I'll ever see the day
will I ever find the nerve to say I lOVE HIM?
and will HE turn around, walk away,will HE leave or will HE stay?
if I tell HIM

could HE be the one who was in my dreams?
could HE be the one charmed by me?
there is one thing that I want to show
I LOV HIM and hope HE will know...

(12.38 am 10 June 2010)

FALLIN' IN A THING DAT CALLED 'LOVE'...

part of my heart wants to be with you
even I've only known you for a while
but I'm drowning in the ocean of love

I've fallen in love
I don't want to be apart
I've fallen in love
don't leave me on my own

the beautiful plait of my love before
is back to touch my hollow heart
I'm drowning in the ocean of love

I want you to understand
the love that I give to you
is a viral infection
for every human sanity

sanity of the heart
from fallin' in love...

(1.23 pm 10 June 2010)

HIM AND HER

THEY met in a strange way
In an informal meeting
In a weird 'location'
Never had a prediction
That THEY have an intellectual connection...

He was funny,so entertaining
She was mystical,so interesting
He made her laugh with outrageous feelings
She made him love her with her ways...

THEY became friends
Not ordinary friends but best of friends
THEY were well connected
Amused THEY found each other
Always by each other side by side...

From nothing it became 'something'
Never noticing things were changing
One day came that someday
Each both had in their thought
Things slip right out of hand
Their LOVE gave them primetime
To carry each others LOVE inline...

Oh sweet divine!
How it all started
What it all became of,a miracle that happens in life
Oh sweet divine!
It is simply true that LOVE is surely blind....

(12.50 am 14 September 2010)

he's the soul of my life...

love is da soul of my life..i can't live without love..the one and only love in my life,i gave to him.he is head and shoulders above the rest(thanx for being simply the best!). he makes life much nicer in many different ways.sometimes with a thoughtful touch or pleasant word of praise.i need his loving touch, i need his smile, i need him just as much as i love him.in his voice,i hear it..in his smile i see it. in his touch i feel it...he's all the thing i love.in all my dreams of coming years,he plays greatest part,for i know that time will never change the love within my heart.

(4.12 am 29 May 2011)

i just love being unperfect...

i'm not a perfect girl...ma hair doesn't stay in place and i spill things a lot.i'm pretty clumsy and sometimes i have a broken heart.ma friends and i sometimes fight and maybe some days nothing goes right.but when i think about it and take a step back i remember how amazing life truly is and that maybe,just maybe,I like bein' unperfect...hee~~

(12.58 am, 3 June 2011)

FOUR in da morning!

 ramai org tanye,heyy u!!nape u boleh suke die?camne u boleh syg die?die ok x?die baek x?camne boleh kenal die?kan banyak lg guys out there...nape pilih die?jawapan aku senang je.sbb die jahat,sbb die laen dr yg laen,sbb die die ade waktu susah n senang n sbb die CURI HATI AKU!haa mudah kan jawapan aku...sampai skrg aku still leh igt lg ape yg die ckp kt aku mula2 dulu bile aku ckp aku syg die~i sayang u lebih dr u sayang i...haha!benda ni buat aku slalu terpikir smpai skrg..entahlah,i leave it to God!he has da answer..aku admit lahh,,mmg aku slalu mara2,aku degil(sgt degil okay!),aku keras kepala(betul la ape yg die slalu ckp tu),aku ego tp aku je yg taw cmne aku sayangkan die.tp aku pun ade manja gak bile dgn die...hehe...kadang2 aku pun pikir gak,cmne ea aku boleh syg die?jawapan yg tepat tu aku ade tp bia la aku ngan die je yg taw.1 yg aku sgt2 perasan,aku bnyk berubah bile ngan die!n smue org yg rapat ngan aku perasan perubahan ni..huhu..yupp die garang,die baran,die pun ego,die slalu mara2 aku (bile aku buat bnde slh) tapi die lah org yg slalu ade ngan aku susah n senang,die ade bile die taw aku perlukan die.die aja aku bnyk sgt bnde!n sometimes rase mcm budak kecik bile die aja itu ini,bile die bebel bnde yg x patot aku buat.die lahh bf,die lahh bff,die lah enemy aku,die lahh abg,die lahh adek,kdg2 die leh jd cikgu aku,die ma best advisor,n he's ma everything!heyy CINTA!!!sumpah lahh aku mmg sayang kau!no doubt!fullstop!cuma kdg2 tu,aku x reti nk tunjukkan syg aku kat kau tp kau pn taw an,aku mmg syg kau.hee...!

(4.25 am 15 Jun 2011)

yang aku panggil HIJRAH....

hijrah untuk kebaikan?atau untuk kehancuran?aku selalun membaca dan mendengar cerita tentang penghijrahan seseorang yang membawa kepada kejayaan.tapi mampukah aku?atau dalam  bahasa yang mudah,gentlekah aku untuk buat perubahan?akan cemerlangkah aku,bahagiakah aku atau hancurkah hidup aku jika aku buat saja perubahan itu dengan gentle?terus-terang cakap,satu kelemahan aku paling ketara ialah aku tak punya keyakinan diri!aku susah untuk percayakan diri  sendiri!dan aku memang tak berani untuk membuat satu perubahan!mungkin ada pembaharuan yang aku buat dalam hidup aku,tapi benda tu akan mengambil masa yang sangat lama.aku nak berjaya,macam Dr Mahathir,macam Bill Gates,macam Siti Nurhaliza tapi aku takut!makhluk jenis apa aku ni?takut untuk membuat penghijrahan?nabi muhammad cakap,untuk menjadi yang lebih baik,kita perlu melakukan penghijrahan.tolong jangan salah faham,maksud penghijrahan di sini adalah berubah kepada yang lebih baik, bukan kepada sesuatu yang merosakkan hidup!aku banyak membaca mengenai kisah kejayaan orang.orang-orang yang hanya bermula dari bawah,yang makan nasi macam aku,yang melalui kehidupan yang sangat perit pada awalnya,manusia normal,dan yang nyatanya,punya akal fikiran serupa aku!tak ada apa yang membezakan orang-orang itu dengan aku tapi kenapalah aku ni takut sangat untuk berubah?akun nak berjaya!itu satu-satunya jawapan aku kalau kalian tanyakan pada aku apa yang aku nak dalam hidupku.

(8 am,28 februari 2012)